class a-team

history faculty assessment results.

2012-02-15T20:55:00.000+11:00

so i got my acient and sor back today.
sor im not exactly happy with my mark..............
then again, that's what i get.

ancient,
i should be happy
yet at the same time, im pissed.
i got 21.
i could've gotten 24 if i mentioned the sources.
i don't mind losing marks if i actually dont know my content
but i lost 3 marks for not writing 3 letters...
sigh.
then again, i guess i can't complain...........
BUT MIN BEAT ME.
gyah.
i hate his attitude..
but he was always good at history..........
==
stupid stupid mistakes.
even akash beat me!!!!!!!!!! :/

well yeah,
idk.
honestly i can't complain.
which is why i have mixed feelings.
i feel sorry for some people
i wanna help them
but i don't think they'd want it.
i may sound like a cocky douche but.... its easy isn't it?
i can help if you need it.
(forget the fact that i lost marks for some stupid reason, i know my content alright? haha)

hmmm..
now that i got my mark back
time to forget it.
that's how i roll.

friends ?

2012-02-15T20:50:00.000+11:00

funny how no one realises
no one sees.
not even friends
they stand idly by watching
and in some cases ignoring.
what can be so important that you don't do a thing?
i can't believe some people just sit idly by and pretend nothing happened.
may i ask what's wrong with you people?

(i don't think idly is a word... idle-y... you know what i mean.)

Another day at gj

2012-02-15T18:12:00.001+11:00

Another afternoon at Gloria Jeans.
Who says all i do is study?
I just find it relaxing. And that's why i study.
Not because i find studying relaxing.... Lol...
Wrong way around.
God... I not some geek.
Haha.

Well,
Today,
I just wanted to relax.
And relax i did.
Cup of coffee and a book?
Awesome.
John came like... 2hours later.
I think he's still at cheso..
Lmao.

past valentine's day. oh well.

2012-02-15T00:40:00.004+11:00

my heart wishes to cross this line

a feeling i will not resign

i wish you were forever mine

so will you be my valentine?

my god.

my friend wrote that himself and sent it to a girl he likes.

first off,

OMG. seriously.
he wrote that poem in 3mins......

...

okay now,

considering his situation,

it was a good thing.

romantic.

cheesy.

BUT.

his friends did the same thing

and it was.........................

LOL.

it came on way too strong..

especially in 'their' situation.
sigh.

so for like the past hour

i was talking to him on facebook on what to do next with the girl he likes.

what am i?

a love guru ?

haha.

nah,

i reckon private school people are innocent to the point of stupidity.

(no offence & prob not true for majority of people so prove me wrong.)

they don't seem to know when to back off.... and step back a bit...

lol.

or it could just be me.

im always worried about the consequences of my actions.

what i do,

how it affects people,

my image,

my friends,

and what happens next.
my next move.

it all comes to mind when i do stuff.
it like chess!
hahahahaha.

so,

that's probably why i practically planned everything out for my friend.

LOL.

cause im so good at predicting the consequences?

no idea.
haha.

everyone's mind works the same.

we avoid things that make us feel awkward.

simple as that.

that's such a basic instinct.

no one wants to feel awkward if we can choose.
heh.
so i guess it was sorta easy for me to tell him what to do.

point of this post?

the fact that i lost sleep for that............ =="

LOL.

nah,

i just find it fascinating the stuff people do

and how people think.

i reckon that's how my interest for psychology was sparked.

is that why i notice everything people do?

cause i want to understand what goes on in their minds?

mhmmm. psychology just seems so interesting.

am i going to do it at uni?

no freaking idea.

haven't thought of it.

chich.

2012-02-14T23:09:00.000+11:00

oh yeah i just remembered.
today,
farrah found out bout my sister's name
& she was like
"are you serious???"
LOL.
she kept calling me kwo-chieh chieh.
and well...
chih-chi is my sister's name
so yeah.
haha.
what do you think? my parents had a lot of creativity yeah?
(sarcasm? i don't really know. LOL.)

chich. <-- that's apparently her nickname.
idk.
13years difference leaves a pretty huge gap between brother & sister.
oh i missed the times when i would go and watch movies with her.
<3
finding nemo. toy story. shrek. cars. the incredibles.
OMG.
THE INCREDIBLES.
oh my god.
disney movies with my sister used to be the best birthday present ever.

now?
yeah... don't really talk to her.
mhmm...

hsc talk.

2012-02-14T22:48:00.000+11:00

at the hsc talk today
3 things really hit me.

1. I shouldn't be on the laptop while doing homework.. i keep checking facebook & blogger like im expecting something. expecting what? i don't even know. msn was a distraction but i don't talk to anyone anyways plus, im always appearing off or away. The internet will be the death of me. No matter how slow it is. (and mine is...... excruciatingly slow.)

2. Everyone has their own working environment. Mine? Not sure yet. But I do know its not the library, nor my room. I'm currently finding mine.

3. We should help each other out, but the way our grade is, i don't think that's ever possible.

lol.
when cree & others said
our grade should help each other out,
as we are a group,
and there's no need for competition between us
i immediately thought
"we're screwed"

on a valentine's day - continued.

2012-02-14T21:59:00.010+11:00

continuing on with the valentine theme.
i like this song.
i like it more than adele's 'someone like you'
lol.
but... i don't know why they mention jesus in this song.
LOL.
meh.

Someone Like You by

Boys Like Girls.

okay. okay.
i even told this to the prefects.
what's valentine's day without this song?
seriously.
i mean..
the lyrics can't get any more straightfoward.

there's only 1 thing,

2 do,

3 words,

4 you~

i love you.

there's only 1 way

2 say

those 3 words

and that's just what i'll do,.

i love you.

1, 2, 3, 4 by

Plain White T's.

cool music video.

lol.

whats with me today,

blogging a bit too much.

ehhh...

don't worry.

its not because of the 'holiday' today.

i like these songs alright?
right..
work time.

valentine's day.

2012-02-14T21:44:00.000+11:00

to be honest,
valentine's day means nothing to me.
lol
i mean,
for me,
it'll never actually be valentines day until i actually have a valentine.
haha.
logical right?

so,
today,
i had mixed thoughts about valentines day.
day for celebrating the love?
mmmmm... idk.
its just that it's not actually valentines day for me.
yet.
;D

oh wow..
i feel so weird using emoticons in my blogs now.
its been ages since i've done so....

on a valentines day~

2012-02-14T21:19:00.002+11:00

So now you're gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone

On a Valentine's Day, On a Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day by

Linkin Park.

this is sorta... about be alone

rather than celebrating it.

lol.

i used to love this song.

i remembered it today.

(LOL. forever alone?)

the end to this song is awesome.

the last minute of the song is the climax

in which they just keep singing

'on a valentine's day, on a valentine's day'

on a valentines day

2012-02-14T21:13:00.000+11:00

don't mistaken.
this isn't going to be about the actual valentine thing.
more of... what happened today.
lol.
today was definitely interesting.
school?
i only remember the hsc talk.
i actually want to come back next year to talk about it to the class of 13'
haha.
jsut cause im picky in relation to my working environment
so i will probably have a lot to say.
oh yeah,
and in bio
kosta did a singagram just for tiffany.
how sweet.
hahaha.

well,
after school
i didnt actually expect to go parra
but yeah,
in the end i did.
....today for me,
was such a gay day.
well the average person would think its gay
the things i did.....
but i didnt mind it.
LOL.
cause well.... it's not like im gay.
yeesh.
did a lot things today.
stayed at parra for like 4hours?

omg.
green tea ice cream crepe thing.
<3
O:
i love it!

OHHHHH YEAHHHHH.
AND AND.
i walked out of city beach yeah?
and this girl randomly said
"are you kwo-chieh??"
and well.. for a split second i thought i was a superstar or something
cause.... she knew my name and everything
:L
fangirl ?
nah..
that thought vanished when she said
"did you go blaxcell?"
to which i replied
"yeah. how'd you know?" <----(stupid question....)
"im lena!, i was in the same class as you in year 1"

to which i thought...
how the hell do you still remember me?
i didnt actually remember her......
i definitely remembered the name but...
idk.
i dont remember her being in year 1
SORRY.
i felt bad especially when she said
"aw its okay if you don't remember me"
..............facepalm.
we didn't actually talk though....
cause i looked like i was in a rush
and she looked like she was running after a train
LOL.
but,
i found her facebook though
haha.
james ruse agricultural high school......
god.
she smart.
she was in the oc class i think.
so smart...
didn't add her though.
that's just sorta weird...

after that,
i waited at the bus stop just because well...
this would probably sound creepy
LOL.
i was scanning others' uniforms
dunno why...
i guess im interested in what other schools wear
plus,
...i was bored and my parents were late.
SO, i concluded that parra = rich people + smart people.
and then there's the other type of people.
us.
me.
haha.
"you go to a public school? PAH. sefton? never heard of the word."
lmao.

well,
today was a weird and sorta gay day for me.
LOL.
meh.
i love tuesdays.
relaxing.

wow..........

2012-02-14T11:56:00.000+11:00

my heart wishes to cross this line

a feeling i will not resign

i wish you were forever mine

so will you be my valentine?

my god.

my friend wrote this poem and sent it to a girl her likes.

i mean,

its actually a good poem.

and romantic.

and cheesy.

but like,

a bit strong ?

especially since you're friends ?

lol.

for some reason,

i reckon private school people don't seem to know when to back off a bit.

my opinion (prove me wrong)

but yeah.

innocent to the point of stupidity.

LOL.

but in my friend's situation

it was a pretty good thing to do.

but what his friends did is.......................................................

its unbelievable & shocking it ever happened at our school.

haha.

Paper toss

2012-02-14T00:16:00.001+11:00

Damn im such a loser....
Ive been playing paper toss for the past 10mins...
My score?
173..
So close to 200....
Whatever.
Its pretty good considering Kim couldn't get past 16.
Keke.

awy4dri6'5esury6k

2012-02-13T23:47:00.001+11:00

do you know what type of person i hate most?
the type that are so scared of their own sexuality.
those types that automatically assume someone is gay
just because they themselves don't want to be labeled that way.
fuck off.
seriously.

what? just because i have a close guy friend im gay?
and if i have a close girl friend im dating her?
i can't go watch movies with my friends?
cause that'll be gay?
what?
i can't go somewhere with a bunch of guys cause we'd wanna get into each other's pants?
what?
we always need girls everywhere we go?
is that meant to show that we're straight?
fuck you.
everytime someone says those things to me,
i wanna slap them across the face.
you stereotypical douche.
and i mean it,
don't let me hear you say that.
==
i know you do.

that's not all,
those people who obsess over girls
like, "oh DAYUM, SHE HOT."
or,
those guys just can't keep it in their pants
they annoy me so much.
i always suspect its an act to cover up their fear of being labeled gay.
plus,
i think these guys are retards who would probably never have a good relationship.

oh yeah.
have i also mentioned
(and i do apologise beforehand, if any of you aer actually reading this)
i hate bballers?
well,
you guys individually are cool.
as a group?
god i despise you guys.
ofcourse when you're minding your own business its fine.
but you guys always seem to be going around annoying people.
acting gangsta.
like you're better than the rest of us.
i just hate the way you guys act.
but like i said,
individually you guys are cool.

sigh.
im so sick of people at our school.
eargh.
can't you guys grow THE HELL UP ?!

lol.
this isn't even the end of it.
i have a jar full of crap from school that bugs me.
but it ends here today.
grow up.

haunted

2012-02-13T22:11:00.002+11:00

FREE.
sorta.
well, no more assessments!
finally!
but apparently im gonna get a bio one.
great.
well,
hopefully i can go out on sunday,
but the last time i asked my rents didnt seem to be satisfied with my attitude? towards studying.
....
sigh.

i must be seriously bored.
both my laptop and desktop's are playing the exact same song...
at the same time...
on repeat....
sounds cool.
sorta echoes.
it all depends where i stand in my room
hehe.

Haunted by Taylor Swift.
one of my favourite songs by her.
she's awesome.
hah.

You and I walk a fragile line

I have known it all this time

Never ever thought I'd see it break

Never thought I'd see it...

tomorrow,

i would probably go gj's again.

for some reason i like studying/doing work there.

nice... atmosphere?
or it could just be the fact that its relaxing.
a cup of coffee
lots of things to see but not too distracting (in my corner)
there's just not that much pressure to study there.
in the library,
either its dead silent or extremely loud.
its annoying.

mhmmm.

well...
i might just go tmrw to relax before going home.
that is if im bothered.
eh.
tuesdays are awesome.

right..
so apart from moving around my room like a loser
im literally doing nothing atm.
hwk?
pah.
tuesday tmrw.
so i can bludge.
but there's nothing to do.....
bludging doesnt seem to be as fun anymore..

2012-02-10T22:05:00.001+11:00

I just had the lowest 2 hours of my life.
Im tired of this.
I wanna give up.
I don't want to pretend anymore.

wehyaswtjesd

2012-02-10T20:59:00.001+11:00

feels like its been forever since i've been on those
'rnb sites'
like, rockdizmusic & iM1
blehh...
there was a time when i visited those everyday
but now,
eww.
go sing your typical cheesy love songs somewhere else.
and
rap about your sex life and how rich you are to someone who cares.

Severely

2012-02-10T16:45:00.001+11:00

Okay.
I have to admit,
I like ft island's 'severely'
And the mv is pretty good.

Omg....!

2012-02-10T01:15:00.001+11:00

Oh. My. God.
I just realised i lost my laptop at school
I am so screwed.....
What if it died in the rain?
What if its lost forever?
Even if its found
What if i get told off?
Omg...

Where's lost property anyways?
Gyah.

2012-02-07T23:10:00.005+11:00

well haven't exactly been blogging properly recently.
not bothered.
i did do like... random short ones
mostly thoughts running through my head at the time.
there have been a lot of things going through my head recently
the things below?
doesnt even come close to what is really bothering me.
its a whole range of factors.
i feel like i need someone to talk to..
funny thing is,
i feel uncomfortable talking to the people i should feel comfortable around.
oh the irony.
i don't know.
don't know.
don't know.
guess i don't really want to bother them.
don't worry,
i'll keep it to myself.

what's been going on lately?
im still in 'holiday mode'
im slacking off.
the night before assessments
im always slacking off.
and im paying the price.
then again,
when has that never been the case for me?
what am i doing now?
im slacking off.

..i guess its a good thing i don't go on my laptop much anymore.
haven't been on msn
haven't been on facebook
haven't been on blogger
yeah, they are the 3 main things i do when i go online.
i feel so disconnected from everyone.
it sucks.
but then again,
i don't talk to anyone on msn anyways.
nothing happens on facebook that im interested in
and blogger,
well... im tired of the ambiguity.
im just bored.

recently,
i've noticed things about people
these minor things that i've missed previously.
these things that disgust me.
i just hate it when they show that part of themselves..
it doesnt look like it
but secretly,
inside,
im criticising these people.
these people that i used to think were normal
these people who are my friends.
i just don't care anymore.
i'd like to think
"they're just so freaking immature. seriously, grow up."
but it might just be me
trying to grow up too fast.
i end up avoiding these people so i don't think that way
i don't want to think like that
but the more i avoid people,
the more i feel disconnected
the more they feel like strangers
and so,
the more i begin to notice their flaws.
i can't help it.
if anything, i'd like to become closer.
but instead, i actually drift further.

that's not even all of it.
sometimes, it doesn't even feel like im friends with some people.
we walk past without saying a thing.
looks like i don't care?
well i notice everything.
i realise that i walk past these people
i notice everything they do.
but i stare straight ahead
because i know they do the same..
its like a 'one sided' friendship.
god that sounds so sad, but that's just how it is.
it feels like it was such a waste of time getting close to these people.
we're like strangers
strangers with a past? funny.
it annoys me.

at times,
i even have to pretend everything's okay.
like our friendship is a-okay.
friends im still close with,
friends that i still talk to
even they,
sometimes do stuff that i just find
despicable.
the line always goes through my head
"what the hell?"
do friends even do that?
you'll know when that happens
i go dead silent.

awlbinrklaerih;na;wkoituycgvbp';8loiruyjvhj
well.. it is 2012
so i guess its inevitable that i've also begun to think about the future
what happens after hsc
how everyone is thinking bout where they're going
what they're doing.
i just don't want to think about it.
im scared bout the futrue.
i can picture myself going through a mid-life crisis 10 years later.
how am i gonna live?
will i still have these close friends?
would i bother staying in contact with these people?
what am i gonna work as?
what am i even gonna do in uni?
would i even get into the uni i want?
wait. i don't even know what uni i want.
eargh.
school,
work,
the hsc,
these people.
i wish they can just get out of my mind.

its like this,
all these factors
together make me feel so disconnected
it makes me feel isolated.
i don't want to deal with people.
and yet at the same time
i don't want to be alone.
eargh.
its this inner turmoil im having between the two
if only,
if only my mind would sway completely to one side.
i would do anything to go to the library
to avoid people.
but no, i don't like being in complete solitude.
or i can just completely ignore these minute things bothering me
and just make up with people i've done wrong by
and what? end up being the best of friends?
but that's not even who i am.
gyah.
its gets complicated.
lol...
forget it.
don't worry.

on a positive note,
today was a good day.
i love tuesdays.
its relaxing.
2 hours at gloria jeans after school
just talking bout shit.
it always brightens up my mood.
especially with all this crap on my mind.
distractions distractions.

sigh.
i just don't want to think about this stuff anymore.
but everytime i see people at school
it just comes flooding back.
to be honest,
those people that are able to survive being alone,
whether its forced upon or they choose to be,
i envy them.
their ability to cope without people.
i wish i was like that.
so i could just go to some corner and not care about people.
live on.

aonw;rohnakwr bps;oetnkhlm setinhab;wrkh nw
there's so much more on my mind
about people
my future
my life,
but i'll just stop here.
i've once again exhausted my motivation for blogging.

still

2012-02-07T22:24:00.000+11:00

I cannot hold this anymore. My hands are tired of only waiting to let go.. And I am waiting.... still.
I used to know which way to turn. You were a light inside a tunnel in my head; I try to follow.... still, I try to follow.... still.
It's hard to see you, we are older now. And when I find you, you just turn around.
This is a black and white of you I've found.
I hang you up and then I pull you down. I hang you up and then I pull you down .
No more apologies from me. My arms are tired of picking up what I put down.
You're all I think of.... still.
I'm gonna miss you everyday. I turn my back on anyone who won't believe
And it gets lonely.... still, it gets lonely.... still.

Salvos

2012-02-07T20:45:00.001+11:00

Finally quit salvos.

2012-02-05T04:37:00.001+11:00

I really need to move out.
I can't take it anymore.

2012-02-05T02:06:00.001+11:00

The best way to spend time in my opinion,
Is to sit down with a friend, enjoy a cup of coffee and just talk.

Leaving.

2012-02-03T23:50:00.001+11:00

Eargh.
I am so sick of living here
Farout.
I do the freaking dishes,
I wash the windows
I vacuum the bloody place.
All while the rest of my family sits and watches tv.
What am i ? The housekeeper?
This is ridiculous.
Even on Wednesday night
When i had to study for ancient
What did i have to do at 1am?
It feels like i dont get any recognition at all.
I seriously cannot wait till the day until i move out.
If possible; to another country.
Im serious.
I want to live in Hong Kong.
If a good opportunity arises i wanna move.

You know, there was only one reason i liked Australia?
Only one reason why i didn't want to go overseas last year.
And that was the friendships i have here..
But after staying there for nearly a month with barely any connection to my friends in Australia
I got used to it.
I've realised that it doesn't really matter to me anymore.
The way things are going,
I no longer see the importance of my friendships. (no offence)
I wanna leave.
I can't wait till university.

FIREFLY.

2012-02-01T21:59:00.000+11:00

feeling nostalgic again..
i just read an article about the tv series
"Firefly"

OH MY GOD.
IT IS SUCH AN AWESOME TV SHOW.
MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE.
IT IS SO GOOD.
I WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN.

sorry to say,
but
it's BETTER THAN NCIS.
<3
Nathan Fillion (also in castle)
IS SO AWESOME.
i love his character.
I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS SHOW GOT CANCELLED...
freaking ridiculous.

imdb
9.3/10
seriously.....

wow,
i sound like a fanboy
well..
i don't care!
love this show.

listening to the theme song now....
<3

if you have nothing to do
i strongly STRONGLY recommend you watch this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so cooool.

2012-02-01T21:42:00.000+11:00

so cool how the fillers in albums
are actually extended intros for the next song
lol.
i play the end of the fillers
and i can't even tell it changed to the next song
it sounds so natural
GOD
I LOVE COLDPLAY.

seriously distracted
see.
this is why i don't go on my laptop...
lol.
okay back to work.

history

2012-02-01T21:32:00.000+11:00

so screwed for ancient.
i briefly know everything without the need to study
but even with that knowledge
i won't have anything specific to write down.
its too broad.

4 essays?
i haven't prepared a single one.

sigh.
hopefully, i can pull through
it is history afterall.
hopefully.

.ehoscjsphxosbxx

2012-02-01T00:53:00.001+11:00

Gyah im so pissed.
This is why i dont make notes...
Although i must admit,
Im almost done in less than a day
But still.
Such a waste of time.
I never make notes anyways.
So pissed...
This is so stupid
I hate Microsoft word ==

he is god.

2012-01-30T21:16:00.000+11:00

life goes on it gets so heavy; the wheel breaks the butterfly

have i told you i love this song?
that it's my 2nd all time favourite song?
yeah that's right.
you.
need.
to.
listen.
to.
it.

Paradise by

Coldplay.

eargasm.
funny mv. haha.

oh.
also,
listen to this cover.
this guy is amazing
LOL.
effort wise, he is god.

Paradise (A Capella - Coldplay Cover) by

Mike Tompkins.

he also does covers of a lot of other songs.

dayum.

the instrumentals sound so similar.

still not bothered

2012-01-30T21:07:00.000+11:00

first day of school,
i need to start being bothered.
i wanna go library (school) everyday
i told myself i would
yet i still can't be bothered.

before this term ends
i will be a social hermit and go to the library every lunch.
i will make this a habit.
i need to force myself.

today was hot.
it sucked.
that is all.

School.

2012-01-29T22:38:00.001+11:00

Time to be a loner at school.

Oh god,
Idk when the ancient assessment is
Its this week but idk when
Shit.

Cabra

2012-01-29T11:55:00.001+11:00

I hate cabramatta...
I used to go there every week
But now,
i am so sick of it.

Tired.

2012-01-29T01:29:00.001+11:00

So tired...
Today salvos was okay.
So ill put off quiting
For now.

Well for the past 2 hours
I cleaned my room
Rearranged all my posters
Hung some up
Lol.
Now i have a lot of space.
Well...
Won't be buying new ones anytime soon....
Probably wouldn't have the time.

Sigh.
School soon..

Well said.

2012-01-28T14:39:00.001+11:00

Just read jkl's (lucy's??) blog post

Well said. Well said.

That psychologist is a genius.

Jeez

2012-01-27T01:38:00.001+11:00

Quit swearing you stupid dick.

this is how it's gonna work.

2012-01-25T22:54:00.000+11:00

so here's how it's gonna work.

novak djokovic vs. andy murray.

roger federer vs. rafael nadal.

then then.
roger federer vs novak djokovic.

hehe.
only going to watch federer's match.
and maybe the finals..
depending who gets through..

GO ROGER FEDERER.
still a die hard fan.
heh.

wow.

2012-01-25T22:44:00.004+11:00

so don't really go on msn anymore..
don't really talk to anyone..
no one to talk to..
however..

today when i logged on
someone added me
and..
well....
here's how the convo went.

devinimyapi@hotmail.com says:
*:-)

kwo. says:
*do i know you?

Jenni Stanley says:
*hi there. hope u don't mind chat'n with a spiteful horny girl. soo how are ya?

im just so popular yeah?
stupid trolls..

I apologise.

2012-01-24T01:22:00.001+11:00

You have a way of making me regret things.
You have a way of making me feel like a total ass.
You have a way of making me out to be the bad guy.

But really;
I have my reasons.
You don't really know me.
I'm a very.......
withdrawn?
person.
I stay away from things if they make me uncomfortable.

So id like to thank you and at the same time apologise.

Please understand.

.

2012-01-23T22:59:00.000+11:00

it's for the best.

pessimist?

2012-01-22T22:39:00.000+11:00

“An optimist will tell you the glass is half-full; the pessimist, half-empty; and the engineer will tell you the glass is twice the size it needs to be”

“In the long run the pessimist may be proved right, but the optimist has a better time on the trip.”

"A pessimist is never disappointed.”

lol.

nothing wrong with being a pessimist.

and apprently,

an engineer is the best option.

haha.

one time only.

2012-01-22T22:33:00.000+11:00

i sound so pessimistic and depressing lately
but recently this has been on my mind a lot.
not dying
but whether life was worth living if i was to ever become disabled.
in hong kong;
i got seriously ill.
i was bed ridden for 3 days.
i had a fever, i couldn't move
i was always exhausted
&
my ear seemed like it was blocked
and in extreme pain.
since hong kong had recently "rediscovered" avian/bird flu in chickens
my parents were extremely concerned if i got it or not.
so i thought
"is this it?"
but really, i didn't care.
i was scared i had to live being deaf..
luckily my uncle is a doctor
specialising in the nose and ear (oddly enough.......)
my fever died down
but turns out,
i had a serious infection in my ear.
i had to take medication throughout the rest of the trip.
my uncle said;
"luckily you came to me early, any later and it would be a serious problem"

then;
a week ago my parents also noticed something.
my eyes are constantly red and that 'spot' on my eye has grew bigger.
so on saturday i went to the doctors to get a referral letter
to go see an eye specialist.
great.
what now?
im going to go blind as well?

i'm sick and tired of worrying how i would live my life if these things were to ever happen to me.

death.

2012-01-22T22:29:00.000+11:00

you'd think that death is the worse thing imaginable right?
well for me.
that's not true.

i don't mind dying.
i don't really care when.
i can die now and i wouldn't complain (although i'll be dead?)
i don't care.
it's as long as i've lived my life to the fullest.
and so,
if i was to ever go deaf or blind,
mentally or physically disabled;
i can strongly say,
i'd much rather die.

i cannot imagine life without sight.
without sound.
without freedom.
without them, it's the same as death to me.
so why not.

you don't have regrets once you die anyways.
(this is because i don't believe in any specific religion)
you can't feel regret.
it's over.
you disappear.
i don't get why that's such a big deal for some people
but for me;
death is the end.
who cares.
it's not like you can regret it once you're dead.

back again? great..

2012-01-22T22:15:00.000+11:00

well at least now its gone.
that slight addiction i had to blogging.
it's died down..
don't see the point in blogging bout my days anymore.
but right now,
im dead bored, with a lot on my mind..

let's see.
thursday.
went parra with ray in the morning, and then met up with warren.
saw bill, anthony & winnie there.
well a fun day nevertheless.
walking around westfields searching for stuff.
never gets old.
tiring though.
especially since i was studying throughout the time i was a parra
(trying to)
cause i had an exam at 6.
sigh.

friday,
was ridiculous.
under kim's direction i went to concord west
but since no one was at the park (that i knew of)
i walked from concord west station all the way to olympic station.
my exercise for the whole week right there.
lol
it was cloudy but it was so hot.
whatever.
i got to the station and met up with lucy and others.
just stood there talking a bit.
for about 40mins? waiting for people.
but since there was no time left to go back to the park
i decided to leave..
was this trip worth it?
i'd like to think so.
since i did go out of my way to see the birthday boy & girl
although i didn't get to see michael
meh.
it's been awhile since i saw few people.

anyhow,
got to townhall at 12.10
warren was considerably pissed at his new phone.
LOL.
ain't going to say what happened.
but,
funnest day in the holidays so far.
most likely the best since there isn't much time left.
no "coffee session" though.
got home at 10 ? i think.

ahh. i apologise for not attending a birthday party for this
but this was planned before the party was mentioned to me.
sorry.
but i still saw you right?
thought that counts.
:)

saturday.
left salvos early to go to the doctors.
fun day?
no way.

Back.

2012-01-09T12:43:00.001+11:00

Back.

Jxidpkecicobdod.d

2012-01-08T23:44:00.001+11:00

Eek.
There is a type of person that i really hate.
Every single time i see them
I get so annoyed..
Can't believe i have to go back to this shit and see them..
I don't wanna deal with these sort of people.
Piss off.
Seriously.

Hong Kong

2012-01-08T23:09:00.001+11:00

Maybe bit early to be thinking bout this
But i want to move to Hong Kong in the future.

Most favourite things ever

2012-01-08T21:33:00.001+11:00

Okay okay.
There are only 2 things that i will heart forever.
And they are;
Iced milk tea!!! (Hong Kong style) and iced tea!!!
<3
Id rather live of them forever then to eat food.
Although i won't live long...
LOL
Life well spent then.
:D

Homecoming

2012-01-08T18:35:00.001+11:00

Im coming home. im coming home. Did you take off while i was gone? I messed it up, I messed you up; i missed you.

Being a loner

2012-01-08T18:26:00.001+11:00

I have come to realise
If you become a loner
You should stay a loner.
Keep that status.
Do not show desperation or a yearning for popularity.
Because once you do
You will never recover from it.
Your image will forever be tainted.
So
When you feel like you're breaking
Bottle it.
Don't show desperation.
You will never recover from it.
People have may faces.
They may look like they care
But really
They're thinking you are one desperate and pitiful douche.
What's popularity gonna give you anyways?
Apart from fake friendships
Its nothing.

it's time to grow up.

2012-01-06T15:30:00.001+11:00

2012.
its time for a change.
its time to grow up.
i dont want to act like a stupid little child anymore.
going through adolescence and into adulthood?
you still think that you're a child?
well you're not
in fact,
its time for you to change
because the hsc is right in front of us
no more bludging around
i want to change
im setting my mind straight for the rest of this year.

failing a hsc mathematics assessment would be the catalyst
im not going to let that happen again.
i worked too hard to get into 3U
and even if i do fail,
i wanna know that i put my all into it.

so,
my goal this year,
is to become a social hermit.
i want to study like mad.
i believe,
when you play, play your heart out
when you study, study you ass off.
yeah... i may lose friends
drift apart..
sorry i don't really care anymore.
i just really need to set my priorities straight.
and really, if you were good friends, you would understand.

in saying that,
is there anyone who is willing to become my 'study buddy' ?
i don't want a study group, since it never works.
i just need one person.
im thinking of spending a lot of time at a library or at home or whereever to study.
preferably,
you do some similar subjects to me
although maths would be my main focus.
we can help each other out.
and btw,
you need to be able to go out often (libraries etc.)
and,
you can't be distracting or it would just not work.
we both need to be determined to study.
okay?
if you want to go through with such a thing
message me.

2012.
it's time to grow up.

Big key

2012-01-06T00:10:00.001+11:00

Ooooo
There's this big key i want.
Lol.
Key to what?
No idea
I just want it.
Hehe

Broke?

2012-01-04T20:14:00.001+11:00

Wow.
I think im broke..
Spent 4000 (approx) hk dollars today.....
Finally time to use mine.
Haha.
:)

Bye bye shoutmix

2012-01-04T14:04:00.001+11:00

And there goes shoutmix.
Lol
Been awhile since ive blogged
(longer than usual in my case)
And that's all im bothered to say...
Eh..

Oh btw,
If you want something from Hong Kong
Tell me now.
Lmao.
Although i have thought of what to get you guys
I got lazy and wasn't bothered searching.
In my defence,
I have tried before but i failed.
Haha.
So tell me what you want and ill TRY to find it
:L

IT'S 2012!!!!!!!!!!! doom's day. yeap. hsc.

2012-01-01T00:00:00.002+11:00

IT'S 2012!!!!!!!

WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE!!!

no scratch that.

(depressing way to start a new year... >> )

WE'RE ALL GONNA FAIL!!!

wait....

no we're not!!!

WE'RE GONNA HAVE FUN AND ACE THE HSC

(MORE LIKE IT! :] )

hehe.

let's just forget everything bad that happened in 2011 yeah?

i'll try my hardest to.

ace

hsc?

PAH!!

easy peasy

(Y)

almost there.

2011-12-31T23:59:00.021+11:00

to be honest,
2011 was gay.
it's a year to remember
mostly not for the right reasons.
sigh.
but that's just how it is right?
there's ups
and there are downs
that's just life right?
well... life sucks then.
haha.

this year,
i was a tad bit depressed.
but after that...
found out a lot bout what matters to me most.
found out a lot about the people around me.
made and lost some friends
had my mind changed again and again
and really,
2011 as a school year,
was okay;
but lets not talk about exams
since 2012 is a minute away.
that's when we think bout exams.
lol.

time's ticking away.
less than 3 more terms till we separate..
daunting..
but we have to face it.
i don't like change
but i can't stop the change.
eh.
(lol, sounds like a line from 'lilo and stitch' heh. i still remember it.)

but yeah,
hopefully i can spend the rest of this year wisely.
i aint gonna do so much shit anymore.
running around with my feelings and inner thoughts pouring out.
this year,
i wanna study like mad.
make and keep some close friends that'll stay after o'12
yeap.
new years resolution?
done.

pohlgkihjgfvbjk

2011-12-30T22:50:00.001+11:00

im wavering..

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

2011-12-25T00:00:00.002+11:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

:]
such a shame im not in australia to spend it with you guys
hah.
sigh..
i remember what i was doing and who i was talking to on christmas eve
and the first person i said merry christmas to when the clock hit 12 on the 25th.
...
okay
nostalgia turning into a bad memory
bad time to be talking bout this

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.
hope you guys get lots of presents :D
have fun today!!!!!!!!
technically its still 9 o'clock in hong kong...
so not christmas yet..
hahaha.
have a good one!
xD

life without you

2011-12-24T02:45:00.001+11:00

Didn't wanna say goodbye, didn't wanna see you cry.. Now look what i've done. Didn't wanna make a mess, broke your heart and when i confessed.. I'm the guilty one. But how i need to hear you, hear you say something... hear you say anything. Every single tear you shed, well it kills me.

This is life without you.

Korean Music.

2011-12-24T02:33:00.001+11:00

the post below got me thinking,
why do people hate on korean songs so much?
why?
is it cause you think they can't sing?
seriously?
have you even heard their songs?
apart from adele,
i'd say they pretty much are some of the best singers in my whole music library.
and trust me,
kpop only takes up 1/10 of my library.

why?
you don't understand it?
you can translate it.
romanizations and english translations.
their lyrics are also unique
their portrayal of emotions and meaning
are done so freaking well through both the lyrics and singing.

why?
cause they all have had plastic surgery?
are you stupid?
not all of them
and so what if they did?
as J.Y.Park said,

"Does the face do the singing? Huh?"

does it?
do you listen to the face?
does it matter if they have had plastic surgery?
and this is just for the minute part of the kpop industry who have had it..

why?
cause you think people only listen to them cause they're 'hot'?
well, for those who do, screw them.
but it's not everyone.
and really, if that's the reason they listen to kpop then...
they aren't really listening.. they're watching.
besides,
how does this make you hate korean music?
you can't blame them.
and let me tell you now,
its not the reason i listen to it.

i don't understand you dogmatic narrow viewed people.
don't like it? don't listen to it.
but don't hate on it.
and don't diss it.
seriously...

favourite songs.

2011-12-24T02:19:00.001+11:00

lol thinking which big bang song is my favourite has got me wondering,
what are my other favourite songs?
mhmmm.
well,
i'll try to list them.
and if they're here
i definitely recommend you listen to them.
:]
check them out before judging.
heh.
<3

TOP 3 Pop Punk/Rock/English Songs

1.
Leave Out All The Rest by Linkin Park

ALL TIME FAVOURITE SONG

for quite a while.. this song

i could relate to it.

it was just how i felt..

its cathartic in many ways.

2.
Paradise by Coldplay

<3
if im dying,
i wanna listen to this song.
it's just so... deep..
lol.
takes me away to a 'paradise' if you will.
like i said, i wouldn't mind dying peacefully now; as long as i can listen to it.
that's how much i love it.

3.
Walk Away by The Script

love love love.
haha.
the chorus is so catchy..
the lyrics..
the persona.
says a lot about not being perfect
and that's just who i am.
hmm..
the only real song about a girl and love really..
usually not my sort of song, but this is an exception.

well!
they were my top 3 favourite english songs!
how sad that most of them is about someone disappearing.
guess that's just how i feel most of the time eh?
doesn't matter.
these songs are cathartic
and i love em.

TOP 3 Korean Songs/Japanese Songs.

don't judge.
actually listen to them.
they're good.
why do you hate on korean songs yet love japanese songs?
why?
if you don't understand them..... they're called translations?
and who says they can't sing?
they are awesome singers.

1.
Foolish Love by Big Bang

i didn even know this song existed until quite awhile after i got into big bang.
O:
my favourite korean song..
EVER.

2.
Let Me Hear Your Voice by Big Bang

the song that got me into big bang and ultimately
the song that got me into korean songs.
<3
funny thing is... its japanese
heh.
the singing is heavenly.
not pro,
but heavenly.

3.
you guessed it.
Big Bang.
Stay by Big Bang

only recently discovered this song..
can't believe i didn't even know this song before.
i.
love.
it.
<3
oh.. its japanese as well.
LOL.
the melody and the singing.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
definitely eargasmic.

well there you have it.
all of my favourite korean/japanese songs are by Big Bang.
i am a die hard VIP. (big bang's fan club)
lol
doesn't mean i don't like other korean songs.
like 2AM's Can't Let You Go Even If I Die & U-Kiss' Take Me Away
but
BIG BANG
<3 :D
as for jap songs....
that is the extent of my japanese song list.
althought 'Home Made Kazoku' has some pretty cool songs,
they still don't make it on the top 3
:)

hmmmmmm..
to sum it all up...
if these six songs are in one playlist
i can listen to them forever.
no really,
i like songs and i get tired of them..
the only way they can get on my favourite list is if i never get tired of them.
<3
in my opinion, they are the best songs ever.
you need to check them out.
seriously.

irbgaowrnhjoatnh amlh awkmlrh

2011-12-23T21:39:00.001+11:00

woo!
yeong gwang knows!
so its no longer incest
LMAO.
sorta..
such an interesting story line.
:L
haha.

sooooooooooo hungry..
still havnt had dinner yet
even though you guys in syd are probably preparing for sleep
heh.
well.. not really since its the holidays..
meh.
i want food.!
hmmm
tmrw, i may roam the shopping centre at 'tai koo' (the place im staying at)
there's just one bad thing bout hong kong.
and its that, there aren't as much stores selectively for guys.
unless they're mixed.
and if there are specific stores for guys they're usually stores like hugo boss etc.
:L
(and if you didnt know, that's what you call expensive.)
hmmmmmmmm.
i need to go central (hongkong).
there's a store i wanna go to.
heh.
WELL,
random post,
i shall go and eat now.
bye.

after hsc - optimism

2011-12-23T19:59:00.000+11:00

optimism gets you nowhere
it only opens the door to dissapointment.
sounds like im a pessimist?
no.
im just cautious.
and realistic.
hoping everyday would only increase your expectations
but not the chances of things actually happening.
so my advice?
don't do it.
don't hope for it.
actually,
hope and prepare for the worse.
that way, you get a nice surprise (if it does turn out good)
and if it doesn't
you won't be dissapointed, since you were expecting it.

i should be a philosopher.
LOL.
nah not really..
that's just how i view things.
thought of this cause i was just talking on msn bout
expecting how friends would always remain together.
so not true.
even now,
when we're seeing each other every single day (figure of speech -> school),
our friendships are volatile and unstable.
things don't turn out the way you want it.
so.. meh.
wouldnt you like to think that,
things would always turn out the way you want it to?
but no.

so after hsc,
don't expect to see each other again.
i know i don't.
doesn't mean we won't.
lol.
but going against all my values and ways of thought
there is one friendship that must remain (Y)
heh.
cause that's the only one i feel will work, even after hsc.
still..
optimism is not a good thing.
(imo)

last christmas..

2011-12-23T19:08:00.000+11:00

cause of lucy's facebook status thingy.
it reminded me of this.
hehe.
i like this cover.

last christmas i gave you my heart,

the very next day

you gave it away..

this year, to save me from tears,

i'll give it to someone special..

Last Christmas (Wham! Cover) by

The Maine.

23rd of december.

2 more days.

....i remember what i was doing on christmas eve and 12.00AM on christmas.

sigh.

nostalgia's a total bitch.

meh.

off topic.

NICE SONG.

falling skies

2011-12-23T04:44:00.000+11:00

this seems totally epic!!!!!!
so gonna watch this!

"Falling Skies."
oh how i love dramas about the drama of human survival.
just like 'the walking dead'
(Y)
:D
only instead of zombies,
they're aliens!
mwahahaha.
only one thing i love in a tv show more than zombies
and they are, aliens.
<3

i was crazy about you..

2011-12-23T02:29:00.000+11:00

i was crazy about you..

aflkujhngoikujh

2011-12-22T19:52:00.002+11:00

you know,
i cant help but have that need to counsel people when they need it.
can't help it.
i don't know why.
guess it's cause i dont like seeing people sad,
especially when i can do something about it.
but there are just so many barriers that prevent me from doing so.

i feel guilty when i can't or don't do anything..
even though its not my problem
i feel guilty..

losing you..

2011-12-22T17:10:00.001+11:00

it was so strong.......,

where did it all go wrong..?

so tell me why,

im swimming against the tide..

and im praying for a life-line

cause i'm losing you..

so tell me why,

you don't care enough to try.........

aer you giving up this fight?

i can't stand,

won't stand,

losing you...

death..

2011-12-22T17:05:00.000+11:00

okay.
serious post.

the initial and main reason for this holiday trip to taiwan and hongkong
was to visit sick members of my family.
not to shop and splurge..
burning cash and all.

death?
it's bloody serious and its ever so close to me.
(people around me... that sounds like im dying)
well,
my uncle in taiwan
he has cancer in the lungs..
just like my auntie, now passed..
i feel sorry for my cousin.
they should've been able to detect it earlier but the stupid ass doctor missed it..
uncle, you must stay strong.
when i was there, you looked down and worn out
but over the course of the next few days you became yourself again.
happy and funny.
(Y)
keep at it.
screw cancer, its nothing!

and,
my grandmother in hong kong.
who had a stroke and was (thought to be) unable to move half her body.
the initial reason of the trip was to visit her since...
since it maybe the last time..
sigh.
well, she still has her strength and that... furious and demanding tone.
LOL.
though she's nice to me. :]

i hate how death is ever so close to my family.
i'd like to think i have magical powers
and my prayers are divine and can heal anyone.
but that's not the case..
i pray death goes away from my family as far as possible.

taiwan 3! / hong kong 1/2 !

2011-12-22T16:52:00.004+11:00

soo... haven't exactly been blogging bout my trip unlike the first 2 days
when i went to taiwan.
eh.
i wasn't bothered.
LOL.
instead you found a heap of random posts...
but i raelly can't be bothered uploading pictures and all....
frankly, i just don't remember what i did for the past.... 5? days.
mhmmm.
well.. i'll do my best to remember now..
oh.
and i didnt take that many pictures..
cause most of the time my phone died
HAH.
and i couldnt be bothered using a cam corder or my mum's camera.
:L

sooooo,
left taiwan on the 17th? i think...
god my memory sucks....
well before we left
all i remember is that i went with my rents to inspect my uncle's (family's) new house.
pretty nice :)
for an apartment
if there wasnt like a million people living in the same block (exaggeration),
i wouldnt mind living there.
lmao.

well, after that we went to eat hot pot!!! :]

cause apparently my rents think i've never eaten taiwanese hotpot.

pffft.

well, it was nice. hehe

just a few things i didn't eat.................................. :/

mostly because it was seafood and i don't really eat seafood apart from fish.

cause prawn shells are so annoying..

THAT and... the prawns were moving.

like,

fully alive before we put them in the boiling water...

it was sad.

i don't like seeing animals die.

especially right before you're gonna eat them.

hmm maybe i should become a vegan.

LOL.

eek.. just like the time when i was eating lobster, and it waas still moving.......

although it was dead and it was just the nerves that made it move

it was offputting....

ohhh...

and they had popcorn there..

which is just weird for us (westerners/australians) since we only eat it during movies

but apparently the taiwanese people love it and eat it for everything..

LOL.

lynda's favourite clock!!!

LOL.

there was so many hello kitty things in that restaurant..

well after that we straight for the airport.

oh. and saw that old looking building on the way

looks so cool!

but i dont know what it is.. and nor did i go inside

such a shame..

meh.

and so we left after like a 2hour wait.

and me facebook messaging for most of the time..

HAH.

it was a 1.5hour flight.

it was okay.

^ that looks so cool!

on the left were like plants and the right was full of chinese characters

it led to the terminals and duty free shops.

pretty.

can you see the mountains in the horizon?

yeah, that's how tall it is

so coooool!

and my plane fell cause i turned my phone on.

HAH.

jks...

oh..

my tv wasn't working D:

well.. not like i can watch much in 90minutes.

so i just read a book and slept.

there was a meal too but i just ate the desert.

as well as my mum and dad's one.

desert <3

ahh... drinking really concentrated bitter coffee

BLEH.

but i was still able to sleep?

huh..

and sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

after 90minutes..

HONG KONG~!

HELL YEAH.

we were picked up by my uncle.

which was a nice change since in taiwan we had to make our own way...

heh.

doubledecker buses.

OH HOW I MISSED YOU.

view is awesome at night.

cause you can only see the lights and not the structure of the buildings

(Y)

i dont have any pictures cause my phone died...

and like i said, i wasn't bothered using anything else...

had dinner with my auntie/uncle's family and my cousin from canada

whom i have NEVER met.

she's like 20 something...

damn im young... (second youngest in the family, dad's side)

hilarious.

my uncle and my dad are so funnny.

anyhoo, after dinner i checked blogger facebook blah blah.

showered and slept.

oh, im staying at my uncle's place btw.

its nice.

renovated

keke.

the next day, when my phone finally had batteries

pretty,

look at those beams of sunlight O:

i should get a medal for this pic

soooooooo anyways.

went down stairs

(MIGHT I ADD)

I LIVE LIKE NEXT TO/ON TOP OF A SHOPPING CENTRE?

HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shop shop shop.

LMAO.

well, we ate breakfast at "cafe de coral" ?? or something..

i love that place.

i love breakfast in hong kong.

hehe

ICED MILK TEA (HONG KONG STYLE) <3

wellllllllllllll,

oh... DID I MENTION FREE WI-FI IN THE SHOPPING CENTRE?

i could live inside it. i swear.

HAHA.

heh. looks like there's a face on the pole?

well.... that's what i saw..

meh.

FREE WI-FI. :D

so the rest of the day was meh.

went to my grandma's (mum's side) house.

she recently had a stroke and is unable to move half her body...

well, turns out she was better than we thought

and that she could move.

spent like.. 6hours there...

she was like.. watching some weird cartoon

and i was watching movies/ an ep of your beautiful and listening to music.

it was pretty boring since wwe had to wait for the rest of mum's family to go out for lunch..

might i add, hongkies eat at like 11 for breakfast and 2 for lunch.........................

^weird cantonese dubbed cartoon

LOL

^dont' judge

I WAS SO BORED. -________-

LOL.

well lucy,

there.

a pic of me.

HAH.

anyways,

when the rest of my mum's family came,

we went for lunch at a yumcha place.

saw my two little cousins

whom are a tad annoying.

LOL.

ohh.. did i mention i got a thousand hong kong dollars?

from my grandma

what's that? that's at least a hundred and something $AU

on top of that, my rents gave me 600.

my auntie gave me 500

my grandpa's younger brother (dad's side) gave me 200.

$HK2300.

DING.

oh and since i ain't bothered blogging bout my past 3 days

let's just say i haven't spent ANY of that money

and have been using my rents money to buy stuff.

KA CHING!

currently singing along to

'whataya want from me' by adam lambert

LOL.

catchy.

"whataya want from me? whataya what from me?

there might have been a time when i would give my self away,

ohhh once upon a time i didn't give a damn.

but now,

here we are.

so whataya want from me?

whataya want from me?"

wax on wax off

2011-12-22T16:00:00.002+11:00

"wax on wax off!"
LOOOL.
can't stop laughing at that phrase now.
it was from the 'mafia babies' video below
and 'the karate kid'
HAHA.
i don't even know what it means.....
well.. i googled it
still sora don't get it..
mhmmm
i find the lamest of things funny
:L
don't judge!
wax on wax off!! :)

w9grsklrnhatnatnaet

2011-12-22T03:17:00.000+11:00

man of honor..
i dont get how this romance is gonna work
lol,
jae in & yeong gwang are in a brother and sister relationship
(so they think)
but how's this supposed to develop?
LOL.
awkward when they told each other they like one another.
haha.

anyways,
3days till christmas.
such a shame i cant spend it with you guys.
:/
i wanna.
but i can't...
just like last year..
sigh.
i dont think we can ever yeah?
since next year, we'll most likely be seperated and lose contact...
sigh.

MUST WATCH! :L

2011-12-22T02:40:00.000+11:00

THIS IS HILARIOUS.
cute.
and hilarious!!
tony and jimmy discuss.

"AHAHAHAHAHA"

WHAT THE FLUFF IS WRONG WITH JIMMY?!?!

THIS ISN'T FUNNY.!

mafia babies.

aw yeah!

2011-12-22T02:36:00.000+11:00

isnt it awesome when you know more than what others do?
like,
when people pretend to like someone
to praise someone
but you know what they really think.
or,
how particular people or groups dislike other specific people
or groups.
its so cool knowing all this.
dunno.
guess you feel superior :]

never knew i knew so much of this stuff.
i thought it was common knowledge..
guess it helps having friends from different groups
especially those who gossip 24/7
HAH.
keep at it (Y)

man of honor

2011-12-21T04:24:00.000+11:00

currently watching 'man of honor' / 'glory jane'
park min young! (:
lol
it's still airing.
hmm
should be finished in a few weeks.
...seo in u
cocky douche.
ah.
and
yun jae in (jane)...
i feel so sorry for her..
why is it that min young always plays the really happy
yet tragic characters?
mhmmm,
she is a pro actor (Y)
LOL.

lee min ho & eunjung would be real pissed if they watched this drama.
HAH.
if you know who they are and their relationship with the actors
then you can work out what happened.
eh.

iguviyv9q8ug4

2011-12-21T04:00:00.003+11:00

i cannot fucking believe i just did that.
why me?

a,n;/4p9tihodfnzp

2011-12-20T19:29:00.002+11:00

eargh.
how is it that im a thousand miles away
(figure of speech.. idk how much)
and yet
you still annoy me so much?

M E G A. song!

2011-12-20T02:06:00.001+11:00

M. E. G. A. Upload to me today! Send me a file today on.. MEGA UPLOAD.!

MEGGGGGGA!

MEGA UPLOAD!

Mega Upload Song by

Various Artists.

best lyrics ever.!

When i come back

2011-12-19T21:07:00.001+11:00

Cant wait to come back to Australia.
:)
There's so much we need to do!
And there's only like 3 weeks that we'll have until school
Missing out on outings sucks so much.
I swear
Whatever i missed we must do again!
Cause its sorta boring here.
I mean... Shopping and roaming the city is fun and all....
But its boring since i have no one to talk to....... D:
Plus, 3 weeks is a bit excessive..
So... Everytime i get free wi-fi
I go and check Facebook for messages.... Lol.
Haha if im talking to you on Facebook i apologise for the 24hr late reply :L
Although im never late by a day...
Im holding onto my diminishing social life.... HAHA.

Hmmm
-Bowling.
-Movies.
-Matthew's house
-City hunter.
(^don't get me wrong, its just so that i can be with some people. I ain't really a gamer. Hah.)
-A sophisticated coffee session.
LOL
-& a City outing.
:)
Hmmm and things i haven't done with my group ever.
Maybe we'll try it...

All within 20days?
Awesome.
Money money money.
Now just need to plan all this...
Lmao.

sarang/ai/love

2011-12-19T04:48:00.002+11:00

don't deny the need to be with someone.
we're social creatures.
don't think it weird when someone is willing to give away everything.
don't.
cause when it comes to it,
i would.
everyone would do the same.
i bet you would too.
if you don't,
then really,
its not (i don't like using this word) love.

touchy topic.
i shall move away from it now.
LOL
nahh, i just read something from facebook.
its just my opinion,
that's all.
im not going all philosophical or romantic or anything..
:L

world behind my wall

2011-12-19T04:38:00.000+11:00

i guess i've built a wall around me.
and no,
its not one of those typical walls that hides one's secrets.
this one,
it dictates how i move, how i respond, how i act
in any given situation.
"there's a side of me you will never see"
as people say.
i'd say, they're pretty damn right.

dunno why i do it.
i tell you, there is no one on this planet that has seen inside.
no one.
my wall
will always stand.
guess it maintains a certain image that i project.
for example,
the post below,
desperation?
that wall, makes certain i don't show any of it.
even though i may be dying of jealousy or envy.
i just keep quiet and pretend i don't care.

see?
my wall keeps my world stable and secure.
but that's just this wall.
others have failed as i've let too many people in too close.

hong kong blog arwihnawrijh aw

2011-12-19T04:20:00.000+11:00

okay
i lied.
i cbb blogging about my day today..
LOL
it soo late
its like 4.20 in sydney
and.. well..
im sleepy
:L
even though its only 1.20
(i usually sleep at 2-3 heh.)
well.....
BREAKFAST IN HONG KONG IS AWESOME
<3
seriously.
yummmm.
free wifi.
and
iced milk tea
:D
hong kong style milk tea is epic!!!!
although i remember matthew saying it tastes like....
uhhh.....
what was it...
plastic? toothpaste
i forgot.
LOL.
ITS NICE ALRIGHT!!?!??

Desperate....

2011-12-18T12:14:00.001+11:00

Your desperation annoys me.
Desperation is something i will never show.

hongkong!

2011-12-18T01:50:00.001+11:00

in hong kong now!
hehe.
finally.
you know why its awesome here?
cause im staying right on top of a shopping mall.
:)
most excellent.
LOL
i'll blog bout today/yesterday tomorrow/today.
oh dayum that's confusing..
:S

shoutmix O:

2011-12-17T03:42:00.000+11:00

read

did anyone actually read this?
lol
i only just did........
how gay.
shoutmix isn't going to be free anymore.
well,
cbox here i come.!
although i don't really like it.....
haha

taiwan 2!

2011-12-17T03:18:00.001+11:00

so today was the second day in taiwan
it was okay.
LOL
that's cause i got to sleep for 11hours
rather than the 1 random hour i had while on the bus yesterday.
HAHA.
oh.
that and the fact that there was less walking today.

ah.
where did i leave off?
uhh
idk.
whatever.
so, i watched like 1/3 of 'sucker punch'
so now im like 2/3's done.
LOL
idk
the movie is so weird..
it'll be so cool if they actually did all those scenes
instead of the whole thing being in the girl's mind.
well anyways
i got bored
and so i went to sleep.

woke up 11hours later.
that was when it was like 1pm in sydney
HAH.
cool.
i dont remember the last time i did that...
but yeah
i was exhausted.
so like.
i was forced to wake up
and we were DRIVEN to a restaraunt for lunch
which for me
would've been my breakfast.
heh.
oh.
lunch was cool.
<3

we had steak right?
but that's not the main course
well
its meant to be
but it has a buffet just for side dishes.
and believe me.
there were A LOT of side dishes.
i got full eating those
LOL
and the steak was nice too :D
can you believe it?
all that for 10 australia dollars?
i can't even buy a full maccas meal (for me) with that kinda money.
pfffft.

cut.. im not in this..
D:
LOL

^this is so freaking nice.!!

puff pastry with...

corn soup!

mmmmmmmmmmm.

ah.

and the steak.

LOL.

noodles again!

afterwards

we went to the national theatre/concert hall/memorial centre?
ah.
cultural centre?

idk.

LOL

i forgot..

it was large and.. interesting?

so much chinese though... >>

it was mostly bout the history of taiwan.

among other things..

haha.

^i just felt that,

this pic says a lot about me ya know?

^mwahahahaha!

i have my own

with my own belt to match

hehe.

you think chem is hard in english?

try it in chinese....

he's smiling at me.

such a nice person.

LOOOL.

yeah

at first,

i thought he was a real person...

creepy.

OH. did i tell you?
taiwanese school uniforms
(for girls)
is like.......
prison clothing.
seriously.
it has your name and student number?
on a white shirt on the left side of your chest.
and thats it.
......so.....
boring....
and i thought our school uniform was... bleh.
prison.
LOL

well after that

we went to another shopping mall/centre.

it was cool.

despite everything being a lot cheaper than it is in australia,

i didn't buy anything.

girl shops to guy shops ratio here?

5:1

with the one generally being a shop with multisex clothing.

that, or really really raelly expensive

or.. suits.

hah.

hmm

then took the train back to some station...

sigh.

train..

it was jampacked.

as usual.

seriously..

more people in one carriage here

than in a whole 8 carriage train in sydney.

LOL.

jks

actually... its a possibility >>

i debated with my parents
bout why people would stay in such densly populated cities..

eeeyk

i can never picture myself living here.

or hong kong.

or beijing.

i want a house. not a room.

LOL

anyhoo

ate jap food for dinner

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

although i was still quite full from my breakfast (lunch)

oh.

that makes this dinner my lunch

HAHA.

sashimi!

had that as well as terriyaki chicken

mmmmmm.

desserts as well.

hehe.

hmmm

so im leaving taiwan tmrw at like 5.

one hour flight to hong kong. (approx)

its gonna be a boring flight :/

lmao.

is this post longer than my previous one?

haha.

no idea.

im sleepy now.

gotta wake up early tmrw.

oh... my cousin's singing in the shower.

awkward..

anyways.

gnight!

its like 3.17 there and 12.17 here.

3.17?

im usually still awake.
:L

haha.

my bed D:

2011-12-16T01:45:00.001+11:00

i already miss my bed
my garfield sheets
my 2 comfy pillows
my penguin
who after 4 years still doesn't have a name
and that.. paw thing..
LOL
:(

3weeks?
D:
i wont survive..

taiwan 1 full! my longest post ever.

2011-12-16T01:08:00.002+11:00

fine...
at lucy's request..
i shall blog bout today.
lol
not that im easily swayed
hahaha
its just that i thought it was 12am before...
cause my laptop's time hasn't changed >>
and i yeah... taiwan is like 3hours behind
so i haev 3 hours to kill
LOL.
okay.
here we go.
don't blame me if its too detailed and long
:L

started off with school
(skip down to the taiwan bit if you don't care :[ )
i was on the variation list the whole day
and yet.... i still attended school like a good boy
LMAO.
nahh i needed to get stuff done.
and give lynda her present and recieve mine
oh.
must thank anthony for the stack loads of 2NE1 posters
HAHA.
(Y)
:D
and... i saw the troll face...
HMMM.
so got home
showered
packed laptop and chargers etc.
left at 6
got there at 7.
and blah blah customs
although the whole time i was on facebook...
LOL
facebook chat.
allllllllllllllllllllllll the way till 5mins before the plane started moving.
never knew 3G worked that well.
heh.

stayed up the whole night watching movies
(good & bad idea)
mostly a bad idea....
i watched
cowboys vs aliens (cooler than the name suggests... LOL )
planet of the apes (way better than rise of the planet of the apes)
this chinese movie called 'the lost swordsman?' or something.....
(crappy ending... the girl died D: )
and one ep of how i met your mother.
sounds good yeah?
that was until i got off the plane and followed on with the events of today
:/
just so you know,
i feel like utter shit right now
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired.....

well, got off the plane
which was like 7 where you guys are.
heh.
facebooked again.
:L
customs blah blah
then, i was already feeling the effects of pulling an all nighter.
-______-
took like a 1.5hour sleep on the bus (from the airport) to my cousin's place.
the city was like deserted...
LOL.

sigh
i hate dodgy asians who always pester you to go with them
and don't stop until you do
i swear, i will never trust them
i always get the feeling im gonna get scammed, robbed or killed.
haha.
better safe than sorry right?
well.. cause there was this guy at the airport who did that to us
but we just walked straight for the bus stop and ignored him.
==
brings me back memories of what happened in china when i was small....
=="

WELL. got to my cousin's house at like 6am (taiwan time)
which means you guys started school 15mins ago.
haha they were all asleep.
i fell asleep there for like an hour
before i had to leave........................ for the long day that was to follow..
first off, we headed to the metro station and took a train to the
'taipei city hall' station
from there,
we walked around the rich looking 'eslite' mall.
and took the shuttle bus tooooooooooooooo THE 101 SHOPPING MALL.
slash
THE 101 TOWER.

can you see it? :D

2nd tallest skyscraper in the world
and contains the fastest lift in the world.
HAH.
no joke...
the lift is like crazy
you get up 88/89 floors in 29 seconds.... :O

^look at the last set of numbers O:

hmm.. blurry.. eh.

^THAT'S SO COOL RIGHT?

in the lift, it goes all dark

and then the roof lights up O:

so cool!

the same thing happens to your ears as it does when you're on a plane
i guess its cause it's too fast?
LOL.
mhmmmm.
oh it was misty/cloudy so i didnt exactly get to see well outside the tower
oh well.

^not a luvo.. LOL.. rents took this :/

^there was a wishing tree!

^that's made of coral

something in the tower to do with physics...... :S

anyhoo, after that i walked throught the 101 mall

.....its just like pitt street mall....

only with more brand names that i can't really pronounce..

LMAO.

its like when you enter the store they'll ask

"pronounce the name of this store please, only the rich and sophisticated are able to"

haha.

oh oh oh oh oh
chilled cafe latte with caramel !
:D
<3
at least i think that's what it was called >>
had that as well as cheesecake
just for a snack
:]
keke.

ahh well, bought 3 albums and

some clothes.

then went off for dinner & more late night shopping.

(i sorta skipped the train rides cause that takes agessssssssssssssssssssssssss)

i got so tired from walking to different platforms.

seriously.

every station is like town hall.

you go up, then down, then up, then down, then further down.....

do that for like... 20 times and you shall die.

like me!

i had steak for dinner.

asian style

LOL

not the english ones

when it comes, you have to like shield your clothing

cause the oil is still splattering and popping everywhere.

but it was nice!

you get noodles with it

mmmmmmm.

afterwards... more train rides >>

to late night shops

it was incredibly busy

and packed...

sorta expected.. just like other asian cities

LOL

eh.

but but

yummy food everywhere!

although im sorta cautious cause i doubt their 'cleanliness' in food preparation

consequences of being spoilt and brought up in a western country all my life.

or its just me...

haha....

this is outside the university of taipei/taiwan? or something...

the one my rents attended

and so, they went through all that just to take a picture of it.

haha.

idk why i found this interesting....

LOL

its the korean dude

kim hyun joong

i think...

OH, like 2 stores down is like a 3 story starbucks

OMG!

i wanna go there O:

omfg.

the train ride + walk back to my cousin's place was hell.

i am so tired.

never been that tired in my life

no joke.

i didnt get any sleep either....

i may do the same thing for tomorrow

(blog)

if im bothered...

if i do

I HAVE NO LIFE...

I CONGRATULATE YOU FOR FINISHING THIS POST

no wait..

YOU SHOULD CONGRATULATE ME FOR MAKING THIS POST.

especially you lucy.

LOL.

i even had to sort out the pictures blah blah.

hahaha.

this is officially my longest blog post EVER.

(so far! ;] )

now, let's see what'll happen tomorrow.

taiwan 1

2011-12-15T23:54:00.002+11:00

omg
so much happened today.....
im so tired....
i cbb blogging bout it
it'll be too long
i might blog bout my days in taiwan when i get to hong kong
LOL.

left out?

2011-12-15T23:52:00.000+11:00

lol
you honestly cant expect to be invited to everything.
the person who does the inviting
it all comes down to their mood.
if they're pissed at you, not matter how great a friend you are
you aint going to get invited.
if you're just on bad terms
don't expect to be going anywhere either.
if most of your mutual friends aer going,
don't expect it either.
cause it doesn't work that way
people normally don't invite you just because you have mutual friends.
eh..

when you do feel left out
make an outing of your own
better yet,
just don't care bout them
cause obviously, they don't want you
or they're not thinking bout you.
don't feel bad.

Thanks!

2011-12-14T19:27:00.001+11:00

Ahh i completely forgot..
Lol.
Special thank you to Lynda and....
Ms Pham Nguyen xD
The best teacher EVER!!!!!!!!!
LOL.

Thankyou Lynda...
I think.. >>
For the Christmas letter/card
Slash death sentence and vow to kill me.
LMAO.
At first i was like...
"Damnit...
Now i feel bad since i have nothing for you D:"
Haha.
But guess who had you for kriss kringle?
:D
I think you liked it....
Hopefully....
Mhmmm :)

Still not gonna forget the awkward text i was sent
ROFL.

Ahhhhhhh. Ms pham
:'(
I shall miss her :(
Yeah.... This is totally a student teacher love relationship.
Roflmao.
Nahhh
But she is the most considerate and caring teacher ever.!!
I mean...
Screw pizza parties...
Screw bludging.
Pham can teach! And she's so kind :)
I mean come'on
She gave each answer every single person in our class a personalized Christmas card....
:'(
Farout
Losing her as a teacher sucks soooooooooooo much on so many levels.......
:'(
:/
:@

Oh.
And also thankyou to those who took the time to wish me well and say goodbye to me
:)
Much appreciated.
Hehe.

Right.
Im currently using as much 3g as possible...
While i can...
In Australia...
Lmao.
2hrs and 33mins before take off.
Hmmmmm.
Im sleepy....
So much for an all nighter...

See you peeps next year!

Edit:
Lol... I posted this on the wrong blog before....
HAHA.
Awkward..

guess im leaving

2011-12-14T17:19:00.000+11:00

well
ill be leaving at 6.
10pm flight.
gonna pull an all nighter to watch movies on the plane
:]
hehe.
LOL.
sigh
i'll miss you guys.
who's you guys you ask?
i don't know.
;)
haha.
ill be back in 3weeks.
see ya then!
we totally need to go out when i come back.
so little time...
oh.
keep visiting this blog!
i'll be updating my days....
heh
follow my adventure... >>
of boredom
:L

hong kong

2011-12-13T23:40:00.001+11:00

so since im going overseas for 3 weeks.
i won't be blogging at all.
goodbye.
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LOL
JOKES.
i'll most likely have net
so i can pretty much blog everyday
(if im bothered.. and if i have the time)

HAHA.
follow the great adventures of kwo in a mysterious asian land.
LMAO.
:L

ohhh,
since i have net
i would most likely be on msn too
BUT,
since its like... 3hours behind over there
you all would probably be asleep by the time i log on
:/
so...
STAY ON TILL LATER
:]

3sw;ledetf7ui5srgiygjw4i6ryfh

2011-12-13T21:45:00.000+11:00

today,
was fun!!!!
HAHAHA.
what happened was funny
but we still made the best of what we had.
:D
we shall do that again when i come back.

hmmm
guess im leaving tmrw.
i dont feel prepared
lol..
i finished packing
but im getting that feeling.
that feeling in which im forgetting something..
sigh.
i wanna leave now.
i don't want to deal with this stuff...
i rekon the best part bout going overseas
is the free movies on the plane.
LOL.

sigh.
i don't want to go to school tmrw..
i mean, yeah im gonna get a present
but,
im also gonna get my chem mark, my 2U mark & my 3U mark
as well as my english mark.
have i told you how much i flunked english and 3U?
not to mention how pham has told us we didn't do so well in chem?
yeah..
not the best thought to have on my mind right before a holiday...
:/
i hope my kriss kringle person would like their present
what if they don't?
SIGH.
i don't to think about it...
whatever.

sigh. sigh.
i've been sighing a lot lately..
im tired of this..

neverknew

2011-12-12T21:43:00.000+11:00

wow
never knew so many people hated on you.
i always thought you were popular.
really 'up there'
in the social hierarchy that is our school.
me?
i don't know whether i hate you or not.
i dont think so..
i guess you could say its not your fault.
i won't argue that.
but,
still;
after 'the thing' happened
i've been hearing a lot of things.
things i never knew people thought.
when i do hear those things in front of me,
i don't know what to do
leave it be?
or
stand up for you?
i've done the latter so many times...
but all that seems to do is make it harder for me.
sigh.
life's a dilemma.

what to do tmrw?

2011-12-12T21:17:00.000+11:00

sigh.
tmrw,
i have to go dentist at 3.50
so i can either come home first.
or head straight to burwood after school...
but,
there's nothing to do at burwood
nor am i bothered to walk home
:/

burwood...
don't enough money to buy anything...
enough for a movie?
but no one would go ==
since its such short notice...
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

possible movies include:
-mission impossible
-puss in boots
or
-twilight
LOL
twilight..
haha.
what?
i've seen all the movies....
just never read the books
heh.

what to do what to do.

2011 arwubglwijbgrawp

2011-12-12T21:11:00.000+11:00

lol
what is this
2011 seems to be the year in which 'crushes' seem to be on everyone's mind.
well,
at least most of the people around me.

its mostly the same problems as well.
huh.
interesting.
its always the troubles of
being friends
caring for them
the boundaries of the friendship
unrequited feelings
&
the pain of getting over people.

wow.
its in chronological order ^
hah.
but yeah.
always the same deal.
same shit.
whatever.
this isn't a hate post..

just something interesting i've discovered.
ohhhh.
while we're at 2011.
the second half of 2011 will go down in memory
as the crappiest period of my life.
hmmmm..
eh.
ohwell.
whatever!

starbuckss!

2011-12-11T21:50:00.000+11:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
im so tired..
i have a really bad headache
and my neck is killing me.

today was okay...... -______-
i would've rather slept in...
but nooooo.
tutor first...
oh did i mention i slept at 5?
i was watching the eclipse while watching movies
LOL.
such a bad idea
the sun was rising when i started sleeping.
WELL,
tutor was bludgy
as usual.
had like a 10min party
since its the last class of the year.

oh,
and my phone was used to text random people
LOL.
funny how everyone thought it was one person.
cept for bill.
eh.
he's gotten used to it.
but yeah,
toying with people's minds.
fun :]
that continued all the way till i got home (after i went city)

well,
after tutor,
went city..
:/
i didnt want to go.
i wanted to go home and sleep.....
eek.
got there at like 12?
walked around
bought what i needed/wanted.
needed? that would be the kriss kringle/secret santa present.
$30 gone.
O:
then i bought other stuff
$120 gone.
im literally broke.
LOL.
$4.30 in my wallet.

anyhoo
it started pouring
and being the genius that i am
i didnt bring an umbrella.....
wouldnt have fit anyways.
SO,
i just sat in starbucks drinking coffee while doing tutor hwk
facebook stuff,
and still texting people while pretending to be other people.
haha.
:L
and yes...
tutor hwk...
in a city starbucks..
im so bothered.
well,
it was relaxing.
:)
however,
after an hour or 2
it was still raining so i just ran for town hall station.
wasn't that far away.
hehe.

got to cheso at 4?
went home and watched half of 'the ugly truth'
then i went to sleep
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

2hours later.........
i had to wake up and go dinner..
:/
SIGH.
it was okay.
bankstown buffet..
desserts :D
can't complain.
although i wish we could've finished earlier!

DAMNIT!
i have 3 booklets of longer response questions for ancient that i havent even done.
yes.
booklets...
SIGH.
I WANNA SLEEP.
I NEEDA SLEEP.
i swear im gonna sleep in tmrw.
farout.

lunar eclipse

2011-12-10T23:53:00.001+11:00

lunar eclipse people!
:)
apparently its meant to turn red at 1.
but half of it dissapears like.... now?
but its not happening
D:
and its cloudy...
not a good day..
LOL
IF ONLY IT WAS CLEAR.
i jsut want one picture.
just one.
please!

2011-12-10T23:19:00.000+11:00

"hmmm"
"right..."
"lol"
"whatever.."

the one word replies?
not exactly the type of replies to give if you want a conversation.
i would know
cause it makes me feel like talking to you is not worth it.

you get it?
don't do it.
see,
if you do it for too long,
people including me would start to talk to you lesser and lesser.
at least look like you're trying to contribute in the conversation...
sigh.

what the !@#$ is wrong with you?

2011-12-10T22:05:00.001+11:00

forgive the excessive unsensored swearing

i don't usually do this sort of stuff....

but...

__________________________________________________________

"love is a game. first one to fall in love loses."

"people only talk when they want to, not when you like em, only if they like you."

man what the fuck?

you don't say that kind of shit when someone tells you they like you.

you're a fucking bitch.

using people and then when things get out of hand

you run.

you're a gutless bitch.

it's bad being happy and caring?

what the fuck is wrong with you?

when you're near

you start talking bout other guys on purpose?

who the freak do you think you are?

i wanna slap you across the face so freaking hard.!

can't believe such a person exists.